Summary: All fairytales need an ending, this my end and how to deal with the ending
to the Addison/Derek saga; Sometimes a ending is a beginning
Addison needs Derek a final time, he is finally there.
Pairings: Addison/Derek, Mer/Der-ish, Callie/Burke
Previously chapters HERE
They both looked up as they heard noises coming from the kitchen, Callie swung her legs out of her bed and pulling Burke with her.
“Who is in the kitchen?” Burke asked Callie as they made the way to her doorway, looking into the kitchen
“Oh my god, you’re a disaster Addie” Derek had his arms around her waist, leaning his head against her shoulders, while she was trying to make pancakes.
“I’m sure we’ll have at least one good pancake” She looked down in the pan, before throwing the mess in the trashcan, Derek chuckled at her before lightly kissing her neck.
“They are burned but the top is still fluid” Derek laughed at her; they carried on for awhile longer until they where done with the pancakes, one pancake looked eatable.
“I’m sure she’ll like it”
“I should get going; my shift at the hospital starts in 30 minutes”
“We’ll talk about it tonight, I swear”
“That was what I was going to say but I’m going out with Callie tonight, so maybe tomorrow” he pulled her into a hug before leaving, giving her a quick peck on the lips before going out the door.
Callie looked back at Burke, confusion evident on her face and his expression matched hers, Burke kissed her neck before going out in the kitchen where
“Good morning Addison”
“Oh I didn’t know you where here Preston, I’m guessing Callie is up too” Burke thought about asking her why Derek had been here so early in the morning, because he was sure he had seen some men’s shoes in the hallway when he had gotten in this morning, but since he knew he probably wouldn’t get a straight answer from Addison he didn’t ask her.
“Yeah she should come in too soon“ Burke smiled at her,
“I made her breakfast, but I messed it up ” Burke smiled reassuring at, he had already celebrate Callie’s birthday with her, Callie and Addison probably needed some girl time, especially so Callie could find out what Derek had been doing in her kitchen so he started walking towards the front door.
“Yeah, my shift starts in 30 minutes”
“Happy Birthday” Addison handed Callie a green package before dragging her out to the kitchen and setting in front of her breakfast. Callie put the package to the side of the food before digging in,
“Oh, you made me breakfast, thank you Addison” Callie smiled delightful at her,
“Oh don’t thank me yet, so I met
“Well, it is my birthday” Callie also considered asking about Derek, but decided to do it later, because whatever reason he had come here for was probably something pretty bad since Addison had looked awful last night and they did after all sleep in the same bed. The pancake tasted surprisingly good for being a making of Addison, they talked for about half an hour before
“Happy Birthday Cal” Addison laughed as Callie threw herself at the package like a 5 year old, when she pulled out the present a huge smile formed on her lips.
“Thank you Addison, these are gorgeous” Callie hugged Addison, after pulling back she looked at the Prada shoes with admiration, Callie had been looking all over Seattle for this pair but hadn’t found them anywhere.
“So- Why- was Derek here last night? ”
“Last night - - was the day that was supposed to be our daughters 3rd birthday, I deli-” Addison choked back some tears and tried to take a deep breath”She was - - still born as a result of a fall” Callie hugged Addison, feeling her shoulder getting wet from
“You want me to call Derek?”
“You want to talk about it or about something else?”
Sitting squeezed in between Alex and Cristina wasn’t the nicest way to do charts but her she was anyway. She hadn’t heard from Derek since yesterday even if she was pretty sure he had spent it with
Meredith seemed pretty happy with her friends, even if they where all the five of them sitting on one small gurney. She looked focused as she scribbled in something in the chart she was holding, he feels his stomach turn, he decides to blame it on that he didn’t eat any breakfast today. He takes a deep breath before taking the ten hesitant steps towards Meredith, standing so far away she can’t really touch him.
“Hey” she looks surprised at him, she didn’t expect him to come and talk to her
“Hey, You wanna have lunch in my office today?” Meredith nods excited at him before he walks away towards his office. Well inside of the safety that these walls provide him he exhales. It might hurt but it’s the right thing to do, he might love Meredith in a way but it’s
Addison tapped her heel at the stirrups, while fiddling with her husband’s hand in her left hand. Derek strokes her hair making her look at him.
“Addie, calm down”
“I can’t be pregnant right, my uterus is just messing around with me”
“I know it might be a surprise but we can handle a baby Addie” Derek squeezed her hand and
“4 weeks, I’m 4 weeks pregnant” Claire nodded and started to print the image out while
Meredith isn’t sure she should be happy that Derek asked her to lunch or not, things between them had been of lately. All those nights she laid awake dreaming about how it would be if she and Derek got together again seemed so tempting right now because the reality was far from those dreams. She had expected everything to work out if they just were together but things like that doesn’t happened in her life does it. Then he went to
Callie had given up after a half hour to talk about something else then Lily, so after some coaxing
“So where at now, or should we head back?” Callie looked over Addison, who only had on paper bag from VS
“We only just got here and if I wasn’t in the mood to go with you I wouldn’t gone with you, okay?”
“I wanna take a look at a dress I saw at Prada” Callie pointed in the direction of the store
“Oh right I forgot you’re also a trust fund baby”
“Who are the greatest guy in the world?” the baby gurgled”You are, Yes you are”
Addison tried to open the door to the trailer carefully, Derek was probably asleep. To her surprise he was laying under a blanket reading a book, when he noticed her he lay the book aside and looked up at her.
“She hates me” She stepped out of her shoes and hang her coat over the couch
“I’m sure she doesn’t, you remember how you were towards Richard” She unbuttoned her cardigan she had been wearing over her blouse and was just about to take the blouse of too.
“Hey, come here” Derek patted on the spot next to him;
“I’m sure she will come around soon”
“I guess, it was just a bad day. I feel so sad for Dorie, one moment have her daughter and the next she’s gone” A silence followed her words and Addison let out a tear when Derek brought her even closer to him and stroke her hair.
“You ever think about her?” Derek whispered in her ear, making her shiver
“We’ll have another chance, I’m sure we will”
That could so easily been her and Derek, Derek’s words flashed through her head”I miss her and I miss you and I miss our family” She missed him too and she missed their family so badly but could they really get back to that point. They both had hurt each other so much but the question wasn’t if they wanted to anymore it was if they really could to do it. Could they rebuild there relationship without destroy themselves on the way.
Derek leaned back in his chair waiting for Meredith’s arrival; he heard his office door squeak and Meredith took a hesitant step inwards. As she saw Derek a small smile crept onto her lips.
“Hey” she said in a soft voice before sitting down before him
“Got any good surgery?” He couldn’t come up with any other things to say without sounding like a complete fool. Meredith nodded before digging in on her lunch, they chatted around for awhile laughing a little. Derek wanted to say what he intended to say by bringing her here.
“This is not working, we’re supposed to be the couple but here I am trying to come up with things to say so it won’t be awkward. I thought that as soon we got together everything would resolve it self. It doesn’t. It’s not that I doesn’t love you, I do. You saved my life and took the pain away but …”
“But you want more. You just don’t wanna live. You wanna feel everything, all the highs and all the sorrows; you can’t feel that if you’re numb” Meredith felt tears starting to form in her eyes, why couldn’t she be enough for him. She wanna tell him that she isn’t ready but she will be someday but if he wants to he could as well take all the blame.
“We’re not working, some people just don’t and there is too much working against us but I really believe that you are the one for me Derek” She blinked away a few tears, why in hell couldn’t she get something the easy way for once a time. Taking a few steps towards him she kissed him for the last time for now, he tasted sweet and something she would tag as expensive. After leaving a shocked Derek behind her she left his office for nearest locked supply closet. A wave of guilt hit him urging him to run after her and comfort her but he stays because the image of the family he can have again ways so much more then the guilt.
“You drunk yet
“Not yet but I’ll probably will be if we keep this up”
“I was all moppy over George which by the way is kinda a jerk… anyway he had just broken up with Cristina I think and he was mopping with me. Oh there was defiantly alcohol involved because we came up with the idea to gift wrap a scalpel and give to Cristina and then we got locked inside a supply closet. Seattle Grace has many sneaky ways to get into it.”
“We wrapped Mark up one time when we where doing our resident, Me and Derek got banned from surgery for a week while Mark got pity surgery. Jerk”
“Mark or your resident?”
“Here you go birthday girl”
Three hours later and way too many drinks later both she and Callie were safely inside of Callie’s apartment, Burke acting as driver. She had no idea where Callie was, she had a vague idea of Callie being in the bathroom but she wasn’t sure. Dumping her heels at nearest spot she cursed Callie for dragging her up on that table a few minutes before Joe called Burke. Not bothering to take anything of then her coat she stumbled into bed. After tossing and turning for about half an hour she got up, stripping out of her skirt before getting back into bed. Pulling a pillow towards her and inhaling a last scent of Derek that was still left in the fabric, making sleep surrounding her.